Good evening to all you beautiful people! A few things, and then I will disappear into the night.
First and foremost, thank you for your steadfast messages, notes, emails, texts and phone calls. I do not have the energy, yet, to respond to all, but I promise you I read them instantly and smile wholeheartedly. You are amazing, and please don’t stop. If you wish to text or email me anything at all, please don’t hesitate – 517 242 8146 and firstname.lastname@example.org. It’s never a bother, and always needed and necessary. One thing I have learned is to never hold back, express what you are feeling, and have no regrets.
As for us, we are doing okay. I am asymptomatic, and that is what we are riding on right now. It’s all internal, and not producing any outward signs – yet.
I had my first of what I can only assume many break downs and emotional outbursts today. I drove to a parking lot to be by myself and cried uncontrollably at life for a little over an hour; at all things about my future; about my sons; and about my beautiful wife. For the time being, I’ll spare you my various, wide reaching thoughts and fears. I’m sure you can imagine what they are.
Stereotactic radiosurgery (gamma knife) has been scheduled for February 5 at MD Anderson in Houston. We have to be there on February 4 and stay for 24 hours after surgery which brings us to February 6.
I have an amazing group to call my personal medical team. They are far reaching, and I am very blessed and humbled by what they do for me. I’m not sure why or how, but I am forever grateful to God for each and every one of them.
My doctors, Dr Ravi and Dr Tap, both called me on their way home tonight and seem cautiously optimistic about treatment of my brain lesion. They are both confused as to why it happened in the brain, but it seems we caught it very early.
One step at a time, and we’ve been here before. Focus on the now, form a plan, execute the plan, and no looking back – no regrets.
As for Cycle for Survival, the surgical pre- and post-op paperwork says I can resume normal activity 48 hours after surgery – it’s a good thing Cycle is 3 days after! I have my priorities straight.
Thank you for supporting our team, and please continue to spread the word and donate.
It’s been a very long, emotional, and exhausting 3 weeks, but you carried us through. Strong willed and with immense courage, we march forward again into the unknown to beat the odds for the third time.
Thank you to God for giving me, yet again, another chance to fight. Thank you for pushing me to get a random scan. Thank you for a plan and for protecting my family and me. Thank you for the support group of epic proportions that you have brought to our journey and to our battlefield.
I love you all. Have an amazing evening, and hold those you entrust your lives with and who you love more than life itself extra tightly for us.